Healing and health comes in so many different forms. What if you hear the Lord’s voice and KNOW that it was him, was obedient and still did not receive a FULL healing? Well…..you keep believing and hoping. You stand against all odds. No matter how ugly the thing you are battling with looks. No matter what people will judge you as, we can’t meet their expectations any ways. You keep standing on God’s promises and words every day. I have a special prayer book that a good friend of mine gave me a couple years ago. There was a prayer in it for a clear mind. I am praying that prayer daily. It is already yielding good fruit. Is my life drastically different from the girl who hurt every day head to toe and doesn’t want to get to get out of bed? Maybe not yet on the outside but inside she is getting used to her own skin and loving who she is finding there. I am learning to love the child, protector, and adult in me day by day. I am learning a lot of cool stuff which I will be sharing from time to time on here. Admitting I am back on the meds has been a hard road to let you in on. However, I believe God uses ALL things for healing to those who need it. I feel that if I am real and honest with you, you will be the same way with me. What a glorious exchange! We serve and love a REAL God. If he gave all our blessings at one time, we would not learn to appreciate them. I am on day TWO of being back on meds and everything is a lot calmer. I take God’s Word more than I do the meds. I spend time daily with him and allow him to open my eyes and heart more and more. I hope I inspire you if you are on meds and struggling, God knows, he hears your cries, he hears your prayers, and he adores you meds or no meds. : ) If taking meds means a longer happier life in your personal case, take them. One day, I hope to be free of them but it is not gonna be right now. I can accept that. God is still working on my heart and he always will be changing me from season to season. He is my Lord so he is large and in charge.